Stuff Happening

This summer is chock full of things happening. Unfortunately because of my work schedule which is opposite of most of my friends and family, I can't always immediately envision my ability to attend functions and/or further commit my productive contribution. That causes me a fair bit of anxiety and frustration, but as with everything else, I'm working on that bit by bit instead of letting it overwhelm and paralyze me.
Having to remind myself that I'm an adult and that I "should" be able to handle things at a certain level used to just make be feel inadequate and ashamed, but I have learned how to amend that reminder. As an adult, things in my life will likely not be accomplished unless I do the necessary work. Therefore, I just have to keep things moving, do what I can, and push through the mud. The worst thing I can do is to stop and panic. The reminder has thusly transmuted into a gentle adjustment back onto the rail and a breeze to blow away those pesky storm clouds of nonsense. It's been largely successful.
Identifying my own limitations used to feel like highlighting my weaknesses, but even that can be useful with a positive perspective. It's not about saying, "I can't do this," it's about problem-solving and troubleshooting the obstacles between you and and the task. Knowledge is power, and you don't know what you have to do without knowing what your difficulty is.
Today is my day off, and I have been feeling very ill since Sunday night. I didn't blog yesterday because I worked a double Sunday night. I got home at 8am yesterday morning, went right to bed, unfortunately didn't get much or quality sleep, and then had to go to work again at the normal time. That wasn't the first time I've done this, but it was the first time I did it while feeling physically compromised and on such little sleep. It was rough. I'm still feeling sick and half the day has slipped away from me without getting anything done on my to do list.
That's ok. I'm going to do what I can, take care of myself, and feel good about it.
There's a lot of stuff happening in the next few weeks, but I feel good about it, despite the fact that I physically feel bad.