I'm dragging this morning, as I was yesterday. This time it was because I stayed in bed too long and triggered a headache. I am generally not physically feeling the best, but I am unsure whether this is due to an illness, lack of proper nutrition, or lack of exercise. As I have been consistently good with eating healthy have at least a thirty-minute walk every day, I am leaning toward the first cause. It's possible that something at work made me ill (I'm constantly dealing with bodily fluids and sick children), or my boyfriend. He came home from this year's Rainbow Gathering very ill. It has been four days since his return and he still suffers aches and a persistent fever. He went to the ER the other night hoping to be tested for Lyme's Disease. He had a fever of 103 and they kept him until they were able to put two bags of IV fluid in him and his fever had gone down a few degrees. They said that apparently a blood test may not test positive for Lyme's Disease if it's been less than five to ten days since contracting it.
So I don't know if it's possible, but he may have gotten me sick.
Even so, I have continued to do the bare minimum of maintenance for myself and my home, lest I spiral and succumb to a depressive low. Keeping the kitchen sink empty, the floors clear of clothes, my bed made, my teeth brushed, my body clean, my hair tidy, and my diet healthy keep me in the green. God is good, all the time.
I am so grateful for my physical functionality, my job, my family, my home, and my friends. I'm hoping that I don't get full-blown ill, but things happen and what matters is how you deal with them. Lately on my mind has been a large question of whether I should try to transfer to a job that's closer to my family so that I can move - this also involved potentially ending my 4+ year relationship with my boyfriend, but his absence allowed me the clarity to be brutally honest with myself about him and I just don't see how we can be married in the way that I want a marriage to be. That's a subject for a later blog post.
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