Today I begin my ADHD medication regimen. I'm at the same time slightly nervous and slightly hopeful, but mostly I have no expectations. This slightly cynical and slightly apathetic attitude has aided in counteracting my naturally frenzied overthinking. I do worry sometimes that it may go too far, but that's the balance I face every day.
Today is Valentine's Day, but I don't really care. I got little cards and candy for my coworkers, but other than that I'm not feeling very festive.
I'm not sure where I'm going in my relationship with my boyfriend. Financially, I'm stuck where I am, and I'm scared to really stick my neck out and try for a better job. I have a humble vision of what I would like to do, and where I'd like to be, but I can't always trust my imagination to be realistic.
All in all, despite my various struggles, I'm pushing forward. The past few days, I've been forcing myself to record ALL of my random ideas for crafts, gifts, etc., instead of letting them pass into oblivion. That's been extremely gratifying in itself, because I am a great deal more likely to follow through on these projects now.
I wish I wasn't so buried in myself.
I am grateful for what I have, though.
I am especially grateful for the one friend I've felt comfortable sharing this blog with directly, who has been resoundingly encouraging.
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